1 June 2012

OBV.


Today is exactly 5.5yrs after my first blog post with title 1st January 2007. Hope its spl day but what si the difference b/w the both days nothing but its a seen is sown today in me.

This is not any exactly a blog like my first one but this is a reference for me in future to review and align with my thoughts.

Day was normal noting spl and every thing was as if it was a normal day for me. But it changed all trying to recall a small forward mail which I have read today in afternoon. It contained simple message in the form of two stories. Yes the message was simple but it is not so simple for me as i started to think on it little longer it is getting complicated. It contained the simple message work for ur long term goals n align ur short term goals with ur long term goals. It also said how wise think and  this is directly saying forget being wise I can never even know what is wise so I wont touch that part at all as its my weakness not to be exposed until it becomes my strength.

I just try to put my thoughts on the 1st part in the simple form of rules(these are for me if u can understand hen try to follow)

1. Invest in yourself then pay others in other words Pay yourself first.
2. Never think about the result of the task at ur hand just give 100% to it.
3. Never fear of the what is society saying about you? This is simple no one has time to think about you and assess you perfectly other than you.
4. Work for perfection
5. Have goals more from one to other such a way it help u in ur future to build your character
6. Learn a new point each day and try to use it to improve where ever possible in positive sense
7. If you don't have the knowledge don't do anything its better to sit quit than making some blunders(disasters).
8. Build yourself before you find wrong in someone.
9. Doing is need but some times not doing is equal to doing.

These are just the guidelines for myself.

-SP

Rules are to be satisfy principles but not break the principles.

1st JAN 2007

1st JAN 2007 1ST DAY OF YEAR AND LAST DAY AS A STUDENT

Today I woke up at 9am, its my regular time (its around 11am wake on Sunday and for classes wake up at 8am).

I got up with a tought that"This is the 1st day of year I must do something in order to rememeber this day" as I was thinking a wave of thought are hiting in my mind and a sudden flash of rememberance tht today is last day for my "student life" I got up in bad mood that this is last day for my lazy life (studnet life) and from tomorrow, I must be starting to office by morning 7.30am (for this I must atleast wake up by 6am), but this is only for my internship.

I was trying to recollect some good memories as a student but in my memories I have nothing special to remember what I use to do in class is sleep like a dumb monkey and never every touch books except a day before exams. And during breaks in college I just sleep like its my last sleep after a long hardwork(but never worked hard for anything ), for years and years during saturday or sunday I just go home only to sleep for whole 24hrs a day. Are these what I have as memories of student life , a lazy guy who sleep in every free second.

What I did to remeber the student life if some one ask me about my sweet memories of my student life what should be my answer,I must reply that I use to sleep in every class like a owl and my hand runs as if I am normally taking notes and listening to class this a big mistery or mistake didn't understand until now.This is how my hand run and takes running notes while I literally sleeps like a . All this thing started from my inter were is use to sleep in every maths class but once it started in such a way that I was still sleeping my hand was running normally which is still running now. When you go through my notes you can clearly make diffence which part of the lecture I was in sleep or in deep sleep and also when I was awake. I didn't understand is this a gift or curse.

Above all, there is one more strange thing that follows me in every new level of my life, that I am the only one who goes on the way in which no one from last level will be with me. In the new level I start again in new environment I know I cannt adjust to new things but takes lot of time but I'm only alone to next level. This is again repeated now I am the only one selected for this company.

The best party of my life is my PG(M.Tech) I have really njoyed each and every second of my M.Tech above this is the gift I got from GOD is caring and close group friends, I will miss them. In my whole life I was never so close to anyone utill now. I really miss all of you for so kind and caring me. Most rememberable memory is fight with PRASAD, night outs with JAYA SIMHA, assignments with SOMA THE GOD (splly DMA assignments), SAI to lunch, prepartion for exams in Sudha's room, above all the fight with RAJ KUMAR (lab 4), time pass with MAMA in coffee shop, JB's advice on every issue, Sudhir gadi spl class , night out chesi adi aa AOE, 2nd show movies and returns to hostel and many more to say.

Last day, I have tears in my eyes I locked myself in room just to avoid contact with all others no one until now saw my tears after long long time until now .... I'm not coming out of room just to avoid my tears I never felt like this even on my B.Tech farewell.

Now I m so sad that its I lost my 24yrs of life with out a memory as a student above all I dont wanna go away from my friends all so caring and loving and missing the fun we had together.

Tonite is last nite as a student of IIIT-H and also like a lazy sleeper I hate this time which has turned the 2 years into 2 days and I hate myself for being so sleepy so many years when I woke up nothing is left for me ....I lost everything in life what can i do now as only a single day is left for me .....

Me hoping tht this day longs forever and never a newday comes in my life .......GOD this is my one and only wish pls grant for me ..........

A new day and a new life style is waiting .............................................never know wats above to come and in shape it will be ,its for good or its for bad, is it a test or a new life above to start.........................nothing is known no hopes what is going to happen from tomorrow........................but things are going to change like never before.

In my life I never forget my memories of my last 2 yrs of student life.